SasorixReader .:The Puppet's Apprentice:. 6

This question took you completely off guard. You spluttered, flailing your arms. You started spewing some form of nonsense. When you finally calmed down, you took a deep breath.
"I don't know," You admitted, shaking your head, "I don't know,"

"Do you have a crush on him, yeah?"

"... Why are you asking these questions?" You said, trying to avoid the subject,

"You should know by now that romantic relationships are not allowed in the Akatsuki, un." He said.
"Well, it's not like I'm going to act on it!" You said, almost hysterical that someone found out about your secret. Deidara looked unhappy that you had seriously confessed to having (what you believed was) a crush. "Deidara-kun, please don't tell anyone? Please?" You pleaded, desperate, as Deidara seemed doubtful, "It's probably just a crush, and I'll get over it soon."

"When did this 'crush' of yours start, un?" You nervously cleared your throat.

"About 5 months..." You mumbled, embarrassed.

"5 MONTHS?!" Deidara shrieked (like a girl).
"Crushes can take a long time to get over..." You murmured, unsure.

I was torn. (Y/n) had a crush on Sasori. Sasori really likes has a crush on (y/n). What was I going to do? I knew I had to tell Leader-sama, but... Sasori was my friend and it was (y/n)... I scowled, angry,

"It's just not fair," I said, looking at (y/n). God, she had beautiful eyes.
"What is?" She said, tilting her head. I took a deep breath, thinking, okay, now's your chance to be manlier than Sasori.

"It's just... you came here about 6 months ago. Right, un?" She nodded her head. "Well... I like you. Like, like like you that way, un." I mumbled. I looked down, consciously having to keep the blush off my face. I heard (y/n) sharply inhale.

"O-oh... Uh... That was... unexpected..." She said, "But Deidara-kun, I think you know what my answer's going to be," She said gently. My heart shattered into a million pieces, but I still hung on a little bit. She hadn't said it yet. Not yet. "Deidara, I'm sorry, but... I don't return your feelings." And my heart plunged. I felt as though someone had taken taken a hammer, poinded my heart until it was utterly destroyed into a million pieces, and dropped into an abyss.

Wow... I didn't know rejection hurt that much... I scratched my head and managed a smile, which hurt. It actually hurt. I didn't think it would, because it only happened in cheesy books, but it did.

"Ah, never mind, un." I managed.

"Are you sure that-" 

"I said I'll be fine." I said, nodding. "Yeah, I'll be fine."
"Is there anything I can do...?"

"I just need to think for a while, un."

You watched Deidara slowly walk away. You couldn't stand it. What if you told Sasori, and it ended like that? What if... Oh god! This was impossible! You might ruin your relationship and no longer be able to be his apprentice... You shouldn't do it.

But.

You had to find out. It was already taking a toll on your health- sleeping was harder for you. You had no appetite, and your concentration would wane. Perhaps telling him, and getting over it would make it easier. And then you could start to get over him. With that thought, you decided. You would tell Sasori. Even if he rejects you, you weren't going to live under the illusion of the hope. You were going to be brave. You were going to be brave, like Deidara.